One of the first things I noticed a few months after my
heart attack and triple bypass surgery in July, 2007 was a problem I had going into elevators
and confined spaces. It first happened a couple of months after my surgery when
my wife and I travelled to Twin Towns club to see a show and we had to take the
elevator from the ground floor to the sixth floor where the auditorium was
located.
Now this was not the first time we had been to this club to
see a show and certainly was not the first time we had taken the crowded elevator
up to the floor where the show was taking place. However, it most definitely
was the first time, as we were standing at the back of the full elevator, that
a feeling of “dread” consumed me and I felt like screaming and collapsing and
could feel my heart racing.
My wife could see what was happening, it was that obvious I guess.
In short, I felt like I was having a panic attack and it
wasn’t nice. In fact this was the first of what was to be a series of such
attacks any time I went into an elevator or found myself in a confined space
like in the back of a coffee shop or even sitting between two people in the
back seat of a car.
That feeling also reared its ugly head during the show itself, a Wickety Wak show from memory - we were seated in the middle of a row in a full house and that feeling of being surrounded and "cramped in" was both new and difficult to cope with.
As I soon found out, this feeling of claustrophobia/panic attack/anxiety became the norm and occurred when we went to the movies or to see a show at any venue. I learnt very quickly when booking tickets for a show to book aisle seats.
And this feeling of an impending anxiety attack still happens today when we go to the movies or to see a show eight years later!
I can distinctly remember on one occasion when I took
the train from where I live on the Gold Coast up to Brisbane how I had to go
through “mind control” and deep breathing exercises to overcome that terrible
feeling of a panic attack coming on whilst sitting in the “confined” space of a
train car.
When this first happened I did some research and asked
around and even asked other people who had gone through bypass surgery if they
had had similar experiences and asked them if they understood what I was
talking about.
To be truthful, not everyone knew what I was referring to
but there were some who did which, I guess, made me feel like I was not crazy
and not the only one dealing with these issues.
I also mentioned this to my cardiologist and he confirmed
that this was not knew for what people like me had been through: heart attack,
multiple cardioversions and of course open-heart surgery/triple bypass.
Knowing this was helpful, dealing with it was the challenge
and as I said above, I had to develop techniques to cope which included deep
breathing and “concentration” exercises to help me take my mind off the
problem.
In early 2011 following heart related issues my cardiologist ordered me to have a CT angiogram and I can clearly remember today, 4+ years later how I just about freaked out when they l lay me down and I started to go through the tunnel, twice they had to pull me out before I could complete the test.
And a year later in 2012 I had a similar bad experience when I needed a CT scan for lower back/spine issues to determine what was causing me severe lower back pain. This happened again earlier this year when I again needed a SPECT CT scan on my back.
My biggest challenge came three years later in October, 2010 when I had to fly interstate. The thought of this scared me and even though it was enough to just about bring on a panic attack. I took the flight. I remember I really had trouble coping and whilst it may not have been obvious to those around me on the plane, I know inside myself I was anxious and really struggling to keep it together.
And a year later in 2012 I had a similar bad experience when I needed a CT scan for lower back/spine issues to determine what was causing me severe lower back pain. This happened again earlier this year when I again needed a SPECT CT scan on my back.
My biggest challenge came three years later in October, 2010 when I had to fly interstate. The thought of this scared me and even though it was enough to just about bring on a panic attack. I took the flight. I remember I really had trouble coping and whilst it may not have been obvious to those around me on the plane, I know inside myself I was anxious and really struggling to keep it together.
Over time I thought, hoped, this would get better and I
guess it did, however, three years later in January, 2013 I had to fly interstate for one of my
children’s weddings. The whole process began again and the “fear of flying”
became real. The flight was twice as long as the one a few years earlier and I was
fearful I was going to have issues again.
This time I planned ahead. I made sure I had aisle seats so
that I would not have that “cramped in” feeling sitting against the window if
the flight was full. I also decided that this time I would take a valium to
help calm me down. Doing this definitely helped.
Now, a few years later I am preparing for another interstate
flight and part of me is dreading this. Sure, things have improved a lot since
my surgery in 2007 but that fear is still there. I have booked aisle seats so
this is taken care of and I will no doubt take a Valium before the flights and
I am sure everything will be fine, however, best to be prepared as I was taught
in the Boy Scouts.
Dealing with the after effects of a heart attack and bypass
surgery is one thing, coping with these in addition to dealing with additional
medical issues including diabetes, thyroid and respiratory conditions can most
certainly make life challenging.
This is a link to an interesting article that deals with
this question of Claustrophobia and Bypass Surgery: http://www.canada.com/story.html?id=b9cffbea-8c7f-4f9e-a2eb-0614bfd42b4d
Claustrophobia link to heart bypass: study
Canadian researchers have
uncovered what seems like a bizarre side effect of a common operation, finding
many heart-bypass patients experience severe claustrophobia after their
surgery.
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